Songs
Let Go Of The Rail
low, as low as I can go
I am just a beggar
Nothing to offer
I can't even say thank you.
no one has anything for the beggar
They give it all to the ones who have everything
So I can't even say thank you.
They have nothing to offer.
I am just a beggar, as low as I can go.
Low
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Resurrection
Do you still know who you once were?
So long ago, so hard to be sure
I can’t let go of something so pure
And you’re not sick
So you can’t be cured
And I won’t give up so easy on you this time
I won’t let them fuck with you or mess with my mind
Because they don’t know what to say
And they don’t know what to do
And they know you're not that way
And that’s why they buried you
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I
I’ve fallen down before.
I kind of like it on the floor.
I’m walking out that door.
I won’t be here anymore.
I’d like to fall in love.
I’ve had enough.
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The Damn
Oh god kill me if I ever get over you.
I never asked for this
Now I can’t stand anything else
Take me away from here
Help me get away from myself
I never loved so much
You’re my crutch, and I’ll never let you go
Plug a hole but the water keeps drilling
Before you know it there’s another one
The plaster cracks and the layers keep peeling.
Never stop until the work is never done.
The water’s rushing, crashing, shaking
Everything’s come apart in you’re hands.
You can’t stop it now it’s breaking.
Screaming, praying, out of the way and,
heal me, feel me, let me go.
I never felt so low, ’til I knew how wrong it was to be high.
A city now lies in ruin.
Only I can tell the tale of how we loved, and laughed, and lost, and fell, and failed.
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Consolation Prizes
Don’t be afraid cause it’s not what you want.
Why be afraid to go and get what you want?
You don’t have to realize that success lies in compromise.
You don’t have to tolerate situations that are not so great.
If you do what they tell you to do, and wait for your reward,
You can wait until your face turns blue,
and in the meantime buy a T.V. you can’t afford.
Don’t be afraid cause it’s not what you want.
Why be afraid to go and get what you want?
If you do what they tell you to do, and wait for your reward,
you can wait until you face turns blue,
and in the meantime you might as well wash and wax your car.
On And On
This life isn’t fit for us, and this life is not my dream.
Is falling down the only thing that proves this, and is getting up as useless as it seems?
As a child I a had not yet learned to hate, and as a man I have forgotten love.
Chasing dreams has made life complicated, and now the simple things are all I’m dreaming of.
Sensitive people are turned crazy or cold, and we wonder why they can’t communicate.
Some people are as good as dead before they’ve grown old, and they’ll wonder where the time went, but it’ll be too late.
They hate you if you’re clever, and they despise you if you’re a fool.
It’s no wonder kids think fucked up rock and roll stars who are proud of being fucked up are so cool.
Sometimes I feel like no one here believes me.
I wonder if they even hear a word I say.
To have someone make clear what’s above me, to hear them speak, there’s not a thing I wouldn’t pay.
I never thought that this life could be so long, but I guess I was wrong as my life here lingers on, and on, and on, and on.
Some Know
He wanted her.
She wanted me.
I wanted him, and honestly I thought the truth would set me free.
I fell in love.
They split apart.
I didn’t get either of their hearts.
Just a feeling of guilt, and it’s so hard.
I don’t want to hurt you cause I know how it feels to hurt someone.
Now you’re with her.
He split with you.
I know that you loved him.
I know he loved you too, but now I think that I love her, so what am I supposed to do.
I don’t want to hurt you cause I know how it feels to hurt someone.
The Devil’s Hand
How do I get back
to where I was
if I don’t know
what way led me here?
If I have to go through hell
to get to heaven’s door,
I’ll do it walking tall,
or crawling on the floor.
I can go through hell alone
or with a friend,
but there’s no chance
that I’ll take the devil’s hand.
He’ll tell that I’m wrong,
and I don’t understand.
He’ll tell me I’m alone,
and I could be a better man.
If my will grows tired
I’ll know he’s tired too
cause the devil has to stay
but I’m just passing through.
How do I get back
to where I was
if I know that it led me here?
This Is Not My Life
I was so proud
Look at me now
I miss myself
He misses everyone else
Everything has got to change somehow
I want to rest
I did my best
What else is there
Won’t work
Don’t care
Why not be the same
Why me this way
Completely sane
In love
In pain
Where Do I Begin?
I came into this world with nothing else but my life to give,
and if I have to die, then I have to live the way I want to live.
No one can give me the wrong answer now.
Nobody’s there with a smile, and a sign on their chest that says “ask me how”.
It’s too late to get what I deserve.
I’ve always wanted to ask, and I’ve finally worked up the nerve.
Why couldn’t you show me the way?
Why couldn’t you say all the things that I needed you to say?
Why couldn’t you be here today?
To stay. In support of me. To stay like a fort for me. To stay.
I’d love to see you.
Stay away from me. You’re the last thing I need now that everything has changed.
It’s much clearer now that you’re finally drifting out of range.
You should have known that I wouldn’t forget.
I had to become a man. You didn’t have to have so much to regret.
It’s hard to believe you even gave me my name.
It’s all I got from you except questions, so I’ll ask again.
Why couldn’t you notice the way that I watched you for so long.
Why couldn’t you let some other poor bastard sing this song.
Why couldn’t you be strong.
I’m gone. I guess I shouldn’t have children, or it’ll go on, and it shouldn’t.
I shouldn’t be like you, but I am. I am.
Am I friend or foe? It’s the end but still don’t know where I
begin to heal myself, begin to feel myself, begin to find out who I am.
Somebody tell me where do I begin?
Anything But Me
I wish that I could know.
I wish that I could see.
Places I want to go.
People I want to be.
All alone, with their friends in their homes.
At their work, on the phone, in their beds, traffic cones.
Riding inside their cars. Walking across the street.
Trying to open jars.
Wondering what to eat,
or to do.
Brush their teeth.
Tie their shoes.
Take the bus to the zoo.
Stay in bed with the flu.
Anything but me.
Crime Less Victim
You don’t know what you want.
You don’t want to know what it could be.
You do what you’re told, and subconsciously,
You’re hoping somebody will notice who you really are.
You’re leaving clues for them to find.
No one has so far.
Someday, someday, someday everything is going to be O.K.
Someday, someday, someday all your dreams are going to go away.
Then you’ll know what to be.
You’ll do what you’re told, and consciously
you’re hoping no one notices how unhappy you are.
You’ll perfectly hide all the clues, get into your car, and drive away.
Not Victory But Surrender
Everyone thinks I’m in love with you
I pretend to think the things you say are boring
I roll my eyes and I walk away to cry
because I’m such a fool
and everybody knows
They laugh and they giggle and they think they know what love is
Well it would serve them right to find out one day what love is one day
Without warrant or encouragement love is
Without hope, or nourishment love is...
Can’t hide, you have no pride,
and you must give in, because it just won’t die.
Without sleep or money to pay your rent, love is.
When you’re old and you’re ugly, and that’s a compliment, love is.
On The Shelf
Nothing new to you.
Wonder how you do what you do.
Wish I knew how you carry on, why you haven’t gone.
You’ve stayed so long.
Think it’s wrong to pretend that it’s good to do what you shouldn’t do
as if you should.
Isn’t it a waste?
Don’t much like the taste or that look on your face.
Kinda makes me sick.
Didn’t trust yourself.
Proud parents quickly noticed you’d been tricked, or misled by yourself.
Childish things are put away
The Show
There never was a place where I felt I belonged.
There never was a face that I could look at for very long.
I never owned a thing that I couldn’t let go.
So can you tell me why I’m here, cause I don’t.....
know matter how I try, it always turns out wrong.
I feel like I’m singing out of tune in someone else’s song.
There must be some mistake. Can you tell me where to go.
I’m not sure that I can take another minute here alone.
The number of times, and places grows like the lines on people’s faces show,
and time erases traces of what’s behind you as it goes.
Things keep moving out of place, like my chances to realize the dreams I’ve chased,
and something has got to change, before it starts to show.
What I’ve Always Wanted
I guess no one can tell you the things you don’t wanna hear
and everyone’s got a secret they need you to make disappear.
I need someone to talk to. I wish you could understand
I wanna tell you everything. It never works out like I planned.
Now everything is painful, and there’s nowhere to hide
I guess you got tired of fighting to prove that you were on my side.
I’m still so in love with you. It’s so strange without you here.
I guess you tried to tell me too. I still can’t believe it after all these years.
Every car that I hear pass, and every time that someone asks me where you are,
I don’t know. Well I guess I should be strong.
I shouldn’t know how long it’s been since I saw you last. It’s in the past.
I guess no one can tell you the things you don’t wanna hear.